Where do I begin here? Let’s start with divine is amazing and all loving.

Creator, under what ever name you choose to call Him\Her; I say Father\Mother God\Goddess is All knowing, All Powerful & the I AM! Humans are made in the image of God the Alpha and the Omega.

How often do you actually communicate with creator? Just when things are rough or do you daily have a conversation expressing gratitude, thankfulness, your worries of the day, wishes for the day and the near future? Do you argue with him\her? Express love?

With my experience over the years I have had many chances to develop a strong relationship with creator.
As I have stated in other blogs I have always been aware of God’s presence in my life. I didn’t talk to him then as much as I do now. He has never left my side. I don’t talk to Mother God as much as I do Father God. As I write that I feel a sadness wash over me. I will work on THIS! Mother God is swift with her sword to sweep in and remove obstacles in one’s way. She is the moving counterpart where Father God is non movement. He is just all around and in but can not move or be in one place as a being. He is nature- Air, Earth, Wind and Fire. He is Energy and Sound. She is a Goddess with Beauty of all creation. She is all loving. Together they create what is. Yes What IS!

When I found out I was pregnant with my son at age 19, I was alone aside from some really great college friends who became like my family. My sons father went back home for his externship. My family was a hour away. I had no money, no job. I was barely passing but did pass and got into a nice travel agency. I passed and graduated 3 days before my son was born. My mom and my step dad took my son and myself in for a year before we had our own place.  I wouldn’t have made it through some of the moments with out the people placed in my life or God by my side.

Fast forward skipping many years of hardship and turning to God to the present. Every new chapter has a lesson. As well as a new story. Not easy. 6 months ago I had to find a new place to live. The place I stayed had no gas due to the gas line pipes needing fixed in the basement, said the gas company. Soon no electric because the bill was out standing and to high to get caught up on. My brother who was my roommate at the time decided he didn’t want a place together once we moved out. I won’t touch that subject. I just wish him happiness. All this led up to where I am now. God led me to the very nice apartment that I am in now. I didn’t have enough money to cover car payment and everything else on top of that. Rent and phone bill and car insurance. My pay was gone. Barely even enough for food.

Dec. 21st, 2020 my car was repossessed from me. Beginning of this journey. I have no way to what was my full time job. It was a 25 minute drive to and from every day. No one close here in this town to depend on. I’m on my own. I feel a center of peace. I know God has me here. I was so close to getting a job at a psychic network company. I would work from home. Pay would be great. I had my intentions set! It was mine. Man was that harsh let down. I just knew God wanted me there. I was going to help so many people. I couldn’t help but let the hot tears release and flow down my cheeks. I actually Yelled up at God! Told him how could he do that to me? I asked for it to be mine! As I tried to shut him out he told me he has me. I fell asleep in tears. I woke up believing that ‘Okay, that is fine. I might have had to conform to how they did things. That’s not what I am supposed to be doing.’
I started creating images and blogging more the thoughts and feelings I’ve have been inspired to feel. As I job search and fill out online apps and write and surf web I find out of no where a college advertisement stating that women are needed in the psychology field. I felt this push or pull to go ahead click it. I did and the school called me. I am now signed up to take a course that at the end of it I will have a bachelors degree and work in forensic psychology field, At a Christian college non the less! 😯 Yes that’s how I feel as well. God is amazing. I will get my
bachelors degree then my master’s and then my PhD. That’s the plan.

My journey isn’t over. I know this. I will keep going. I will continue to have conversations with God and start more often speaking to Mother God as well. I know she’s there standing watching and sending love.

Life isn’t easy and often times not fair at all. We signed up for this college course. We will succeed in the advancement of our souls.

Love & Light

Blessed Be So Mote It Be
AMEN AMEN AMEN

Amy Ruth Emam